Michael

I normally blog on myspace. I have been trying to post this for two days on myspace, but it's not letting me. I'm posting it here.


My dearest precious Michael,

It's 9:30 here. This time last year I had just made it home and was very excited to hear from Joni with my numbers. Losing you was the furthest thing from my mind. Then I got that call. "I'm sorry" she said. She was very compassionate, but it didn't help. I miss you so much right now. Sometimes I don't understand how life went on and how the world continues to move around me, forcing me to move with it. Daddy had to work today, so when he goes home we will go to visit with you and release your balloons. Watch for them. Your brothers helped pick a couple and Grammie got you one as well.

You are, and always will be, such a part of my life. BB tells me all the time that he misses you. You have that impact on people. Even though they didn't know you then, they can still feel you here. He tells me that he plays with you also. One thing is certain, we all can't wait to get to Heaven so we can hug and kiss you. My world is a better place because you are in it. I am blessed to be your mommy.


GLORY BABY

Glory Baby, You slipped away
As fast as we could say baby, baby
You were growing, what happened Dear,
You disappeared on us baby, baby
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe
Until we're home with you Until we're home with you

CHORUS
We miss you everyday, miss you in every way
But we know there's a day when we will hold you, we will hold you
And you'll kiss our tears away, when we're home to stay
*We can't wait for the day when we will see you, we will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you, until mom and dad can hold you*
You'll just have heaven before we do
You'll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little baby, it's hard to understand it
Cause we are hurting, we are hurting
But there is healing, and we know we're stronger people
Through the growing, and in knowing
All things work together for our good
And God works his purposes
Just like he said he would, just like he said he would

I can't imagine Heaven's lullabies
And what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing
Heaven is your home
And it's all you'll ever know, all you'll ever know

ANGEL

Have you ever met an angel?
Whose smile is like the sun?
Whose laugh is like a melody?
That reaches everyone
Have you ever hugged an angel?
Swept up in their embrace
I swear, there’s nothing
In this world that makes you feel that safe
Have you ever really loved an angel?
Once you have, you’ll never be the same again
Have you ever had to let go of an angel?
Say goodbye, let ‘em fly
My Angel
My best friend
Have you felt the strength of an angel?
When you needed it the most
Lifted by those gentle wings
You know you’re not alone
Every now and then
I feel the peace inside
Wherever life may take me
I’m guided by that light
Have you ever really loved an angel?
Once you have, you’ll never be the same again
Have you ever had to let go of an angel?
Say goodbye, let ‘em fly
My Angel
My best friend
‘Cause I have really loved an angel
(And I will never be the same again) How could I ever be the same?
‘Cause I have had to let go of my angel
Say goodbye (goodbye) let ‘em fly (let ‘em fly)
My angel
My best friend


PRECIOUS CHILD


In my dreams, you are alive and wellPrecious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bellPrecious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still

In my heart, you live onAlways there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

In my plans, I was the first to leave Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grievePrecious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live onAlways there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

God knows I want to hold you, See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then

In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart


WITH HOPE

This is not at all
How we thought it was supposed to be
We had so many plans for you
We has so many dreams
But now you've gone away
And left us with the memories of your smile
And nothing we can say
And nothing we can do
Can take away the pain
The pain of losing you
And we can cry with hope
We can say good-bye with hope
'Cause we know our good-bye is not the end
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
There's a place where we'll see your face again
We'll see your face again
And never have I known
Anything so hard to understand
And never have I questioned more
The wisdom of God's plan
But through the cloud of tears
I see the Father smile and say 'well done.'
And I imagine you
Where you wanted most to be
Seeing all your dreams come true
'Cause now your home
And now your free
Chorus
We have this hope as an anchor
'Cause we believe that everything
God promised us is true
Chorus
We wait with hope
And we ache with hope
We hold on with hope
We let go with hope

Homesick


You're in a better place,
I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times
I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken,
the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again
And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now